werewolfyman Wrote:TBH, the worst part about it was right towards the end.
She was so thin I could see most of her skeleton, she couldn't walk, and she was barely breathing.
Yeah, I know how that must have been. Timber was overweight, but towards the end, she ate less and less until she stopped eating completely. All she did was lie around the house, sickly skinny in contrast to how she'd been months ago. It was scary, sad, and so final. We didn't euthanize her; we didn't think it was what she wanted. She "bounced" back at least twice when we thought about putting her down. We gave her a world of love every moment of her life though, beginning to end. That's what counts. That's what made me feel that her life meant something, so I accepted that she was gone rather quickly. I still miss her, but hopefully this insight can help you (sorry if it seems like I'm talking too much about me, it's not my dog that just died, so...)
werewolfyman Wrote:I couldn't work up the courage to go to the vet with my mother.
Again, I can relate to this experience. I remember the night Mango died, everyone went to the vet but me. I thought he'd pull through, so I stayed home to do homework. I regret not seeing him one last time, and it's only one of two things I've ever regretted. Still, I know I gave him as much love as he could ask for and more, so it's not painful today.
We have another dog (Cookie) and a cat (Spyro) now. I know no one can ever replace those who you've lost, and for the longest time I didn't want any more pets in the house, not for another few years. But not having companions like them was lonelier; our house was just so empty. I'm making every day I have with them count, and I love them in their own right, not in comparison to Timber and Mango. Even if you don't ever get another dog, don't worry.
It sounds counter-intuitive, what with the grieving process taking place for you right now, but just keep Lucy in mind, and every day will be a better one. She was your friend and you loved her very much from what I can tell. I'm sure she didn't have regrets about the time you two spent together. Like I said, that's what counts man.