I wanted to get something off my chest

[Xtreme2damax]

I apologize for my irritable and cranky attitude lately and I am deeply sorry if I offended anyone and said things that shouldn't have been said. Real life is kicking my ass and I've been more depressed, moody, and irritable lately.

I'm also getting ready for the big move out of my parents place and into the real world on my own, due to this I've had increased anxiety.

My community isn't doing so well either, and I'm a bit depressed about that, I'm debating whether or not I should even continue to provide any builds since no one seems to care about my builds anymore nor is the effort I put into them appreciated except by only a few.

So I apologize for jumping at anyone, I would never intentionally offend anyone, I hope everyone I may have offended can find it in their hearts to forgive me.

[NaturalViolence]

Quote:My community isn't doing so well either, and I'm a bit depressed about that, I'm debating whether or not I should even continue to provide any builds since no one seems to care about my builds anymore nor is the effort I put into them appreciated except by only a few.

Are you insane!?!? Do you have any idea how many noobs ask me for builds with the tp speed patch applied? And what do you think I do? I give them a link to your thread. You may not realize it but what you do is extremely important to this community and I for one will not sit here and let you depreciate yourself. Snap out of it man!

Quote:So I apologize for jumping at anyone, I would never intentionally offend anyone, I hope everyone I may have offended can find it in their hearts to forgive me.

I have been extremely active on these forums the last few months (as I am sure you have seen) and I am fairly sure I have read almost all of your posts during that time span, and I have to yet to see one that could be considered offensive.

Quote:I'm also getting ready for the big move out of my parents place and into the real world on my own, due to this I've had increased anxiety.

Hate to ask a personal question on a public forum but I am assuming your 18 and moving out to go to a university correct? If so I know how you feel, I was the same way. But you know what? It ended up being the single greatest thing to happen to me, EVER. You cannot even begin to comprehend just how great life is without parents while your still in school (it's when you get out of college that life starts to suck).

The fact that your apologizing for the POSSIBILITY of offending someone on AN INTERNET FORUM (where offensive behavior is accepted as normal because it's so damn common) is proof that your still a really good person, don't ever forget that.

After reading this you may be thinking to yourself "WTF? I didn't expect that guy to be saying all those nice things about me". If you do think that please realize that although we have probably disagreed several times I still respect you and appreciate your contributions to the dolphin community. I feel that we as users are in a privileged position by using the hard work of the developers for our own entertainment and therefore it is the responsibility of us as users to give what we can to the community whenever we can through services (assuming the person can't code of course). And whether you realize it or not you do this. The hyrule field issue is a great example. I have yet to see someone else on this forum display that level of persistence in understanding a problem and getting it fixed.

[Xtreme2damax]

Thanks NV, I somehow get a feeling that I know you from elsewhere. By any chance were you ever active at Ngemu, Emutalk or another emulation forum? I know it may seem a little odd that I apologize, but I consider posting on a forum the same as talking to other people in real life so I show them the same kindness and compassion as I would in real life, we are after all still people sitting behind our computers.

I just have a lot of stuff that I am stressed about, I kind of lost myself in one of Lectrodes builds thread, which is why I wanted to get this off my chest since I felt bad about the way I conducted myself, which is not how I normally act.

[thaCASHdude]

i agree with NV.

and hey, don't worry Xtreme, its all good!

[Arpit]

Being in the society is not at all easy....Ask me, here we had to fulfill all the formalities of the society or we will be the centre of abusive talks....(lower the level of my talks...)...Just ask me....:p

[NaturalViolence]

Quote:Thanks NV, I somehow get a feeling that I know you from elsewhere. By any chance were you ever active at Ngemu, Emutalk or another emulation forum? I know it may seem a little odd that I apologize, but I consider posting on a forum the same as talking to other people in real life so I show them the same kindness and compassion as I would in real life, we are after all still people sitting behind our computers.

Nope. Only other emulator community I tried to get involved in was project64, but it was dead by the time I got there.

It's not odd, it just DOESN'T HAPPEN, EVER. No one apologizes for anything on forums. I act like an ass all the time but I never apologize because my intentions are still good and their is no point in apologizing. So if you don't mind me asking, are you going off to a university? If so what university?

Quote:.Ask me, here we had to fulfill all the formalities of the society or we will be the centre of abusive talks....(lower the level of my talks...)...Just ask me....

What region/country are you from if you don't mind me asking?

I mainly came here to teach/help the noobs. I have good intentions but unfortunately the combination of the fact that most posters on this forum are computer illiterate and speak poor english and the fact that many other people with other opinions and knowledge also want to help these noobs tends to cause conflicts. You have shown a remarkable level of patience when dealing with these people, a level I am almost incapable of. And you clearly have a desire to learn more about emulation. Your one of the few people on these forums that can not only understand what I have to say when I try to explain concepts like framebuffers but want to learn about it by asking and answering instead of arguing.

[blakegriplingph]

Nah, I feel your pain, brother. We all come into tough times, whether IRL or online.

[GundamQuatro]

(07-02-2010, 01:35 PM)Xtreme2damax Wrote: I apologize for my irritable and cranky attitude lately and I am deeply sorry if I offended anyone and said things that shouldn't have been said. Real life is kicking my ass and I've been more depressed, moody, and irritable lately.

as NV i haven't seen any rude posts from you. so no need for apologizing.

Quote:My community isn't doing so well either, and I'm a bit depressed about that, I'm debating whether or not I should even continue to provide any builds since no one seems to care about my builds anymore nor is the effort I put into them appreciated except by only a few.

wtf, i download your builds only XD. and you're saying that you're gonna stop. no way hoze

Quote:So I apologize for jumping at anyone, I would never intentionally offend anyone, I hope everyone I may have offended can find it in their hearts to forgive me.

this was the most sincere post i've ever read
and yeah even if you actually acted rude i'd still forgive you.

[Arpit]

(07-03-2010, 08:05 AM)NaturalViolence Wrote:

Quote:Thanks NV, I somehow get a feeling that I know you from elsewhere. By any chance were you ever active at Ngemu, Emutalk or another emulation forum? I know it may seem a little odd that I apologize, but I consider posting on a forum the same as talking to other people in real life so I show them the same kindness and compassion as I would in real life, we are after all still people sitting behind our computers.

Nope. Only other emulator community I tried to get involved in was project64, but it was dead by the time I got there.

It's not odd, it just DOESN'T HAPPEN, EVER. No one apologizes for anything on forums. I act like an ass all the time but I never apologize because my intentions are still good and their is no point in apologizing. So if you don't mind me asking, are you going off to a university? If so what university?

Quote:.Ask me, here we had to fulfill all the formalities of the society or we will be the centre of abusive talks....(lower the level of my talks...)...Just ask me....

What region/country are you from if you don't mind me asking?

I mainly came here to teach/help the noobs. I have good intentions but unfortunately the combination of the fact that most posters on this forum are computer illiterate and speak poor english and the fact that many other people with other opinions and knowledge also want to help these noobs tends to cause conflicts. You have shown a remarkable level of patience when dealing with these people, a level I am almost incapable of. And you clearly have a desire to learn more about emulation. Your one of the few people on these forums that can not only understand what I have to say when I try to explain concepts like framebuffers but want to learn about it by asking and answering instead of arguing.

By the way I am from India. You may have heard about that country, especially if you are an american. And even if you are not, you may have heard India for its 1 billion + population, and if next 5-10 years, India is expected to be the most populated country in the world. HEHEHE...every sixth person on the earth is Indian origin. Here, gaming industry is not at all present. We have no options but to purchase from cartwender which are 101% pirated. We have no other choice. Luckily, I got my brother in USA (that's my cousin) that brought his Wii games to me. So I was able to rip it and join this emulator. Here, you can find almost every PC owner a noob. They say to me, " I have .75 GB ONBOARD graphics, and you have only 256 MB....HAHAHA...." You can imagine the level of noobness about IT in common people.....I am not talking about IITians and Silicon Plateau, ie Bangalore or now Bangaluru. They are just truely a genius.....

But still, until a certain age, condition is dismal. I will create a thread if I get time from my school and coaching comparing and discussing about myths related to different countries...

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@ Xtreme2Damax Do you have any Facebook/orkut/twitter account. All of us can really help you.....(especially I...)

[Xtreme2damax]

I don't know quite how to say this or if everyone will forgive me, but I have been stressed...a lot lately which has caused me to lash out at others. This behavior is not normal of me and I offended those I didn't mean to offend, pushed those away I didn't mean to push away. Attacking newbies on Googlecode that post bogus negative ratings, attacking those that don't leave comments explaining why they gave a negative rating, attacking those complaining about ditching XP x64 support even though I shouldn't care and my attitude towards some newbies here on the forum. I've been such a pompous ass lately, disregarding and essentially accusing or attacking those around me if they didn't see things my way or disagreed with me.

Things have been stressful on me the past five or so years, I've let my judgement and my attitude to become clouded with negativity, emotions and drama. I snapped and started attacking others, bringing real life emotions into my online life and let it affect my online persona. I lost my way and am now trying to get back on the right path, regain proper train of thought, focus on what matters, self improvement, keeping any negative emotions and dramas away from online interactions and have fun.

I just became too stressed out, burned out due to certain things, I suppose what I need is a long break from all of it and get my priorities straight. I deeply and sincerely apologize for everything, those I offended and may have offended.

Cheers.